Thursday, July 29, 2021
Two Digit Prayer
An Acknowledgement
It may well be Aunt
Zoe’s fault.
My little family used
to visit her in Laguna Beach, California back when people could still afford to
live there. She was my father’s father’s sister… a fervent Protestant
Republican school teacher who never married. She scared me because she was loud
and opinionated. She had rules and brooked no transgressions, but her affection
was as voluminous as her anatomy. Everyone loved her. Neighbors,
students, church members, strangers at the grocery store … all who fell within
her orbit stayed within her orbit, smiling.
One day, returning
from an afternoon at the beach, I sat at her desk and wrote about the waves
marching to the shore in endless synchronicity.
Aunt Zoe said it was
brilliant and that I would obviously become a great writer. And I, who was
barely seven at the time, believed her.
Thereafter, I turned
to writing whenever I found myself in new or uncomfortable territory. When we
moved from southern California to eastern Ohio, I forged a niche in my new
world by writing for the junior high paper, then the high school paper, then,
later for the college paper. Then, after graduation, for an actual
newspaper.
When my marriage
became untenable, I wrote a collection of poems and verse that became a program
I presented to women’s groups. That helped. For a while. After divorce, I found
a job … writing. When my employer decided to move to its offices from Chicago
to Tampa, I found another writing job in the Chicago area– one that eventually
gave me the opportunity to travel to other countries [Canada, Guatemala, Japan,
Korea, England, Brazil, Mexico, Turkey, Australia, Republic of China (Taiwan),
Hong Kong, The People’s Republic of China, Switzerland, and France. When that
job fizzled, I quit and got another job … writing… that took me to South Africa
(and Zimbabwe and Namibia]. And when that job disappeared, I quit and moved to
Colorado to work on writing for myself. So far, two books.
I am working on a
modest collection of essays but not with the discipline Aunt Zoe would have
preferred. She was a great believer in discipline (and honesty and temperance).
Actually, there might be much about my life that would generate her
disapproval.
Still, I know that
nothing makes me feel more alive than when I am sitting in front of my computer
letting the words accumulate in a fashion that makes some kind of sense, or
point. Or both.
Every time my dad
pulled up in front of Aunt Zoe’s house, he would comment on the state of the
hibiscus plant by her front door. I have my own garden now (in Colorado).
Recently, I planted my own hibiscus. The flowers are my private memorial to
Aunt Zoe in gratitude for her encouragement in a craft that has sustained me my
whole life. And pulled me around the world.